Strange days indeed....

Not sure why, but did not have it together yesterday. I think the worst day yet.

Oddly, I was productive, sat in the office and did all the things I meant to get done, which were lots of the things I hate.

Never got on top of it, spent a lot of the day with swimmy vision. Went back to bed 4 times.

Finally had a fire in the fire pit and tried to read, but the mosquitos came out. Lit some fireworks to smoke up the area, but the reality, of course,  is its better to have your best friend sitting by the fire with you.
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Not really sure of the point of writing this either. Maybe it helps to get it out. Lori sure believed in a journal.

Waiting for the point that I stop dreading there is a tomorrow

I Just Realized I'm Homeless.....

I live at a house in Milford. 

When I reference that place, I find myself saying "I'm going to the house", or "I'm at the house".

I don't think, "I'm going home",  when I leave to go there.

I fully blame Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros for this.  It's that song of his called Home. 

We really felt it to be true, that home is wherever I'm alone with you.

I guess I will just be a street person.

                                 But I look forward to going home......

Honey

http://youtu.be/59BZxgohr9g

Exit stage left - June 8th, 2013

Olivia has left the building.

Not so cool with that. 

It's a new world, 

             but not a brave new world.

" everything is definitely not the same babylove "

                  Time to re-read Liseys Story

Wanna take a bath?

Day after day, love turns grey Like the skin of a dying man And night after night we pretend it's all right But I have grown older and You have grown colder and Nothing is very much fun any more. And I can feel one of my turns coming on. I feel cold as a razor blade Tight as a tourniquet Dry as a funeral drum Run to the bedroom, in the suitcase on the left You'll find my favourite axe Don't look so frightened This is just a passing phase Just one of my bad days Would you like to watch T.V. ? Or get between the sheets Or contemplate the silent freeway ? Would you like something to eat ? Would you like to learn to fly ? Would you ? Would you like to see me try ? Oh I don't know Would you like to call the cops ? Do you think it's time I stopped ? Why are you running away ?                           Pink Floyd -One of my Turns